daybreak and fireflies ☀ panicked

[arcy]

Upon discovering the library a week or so earlier, Izuku had decided to put effort into making this place livable. He liked to read here, and it was a good safe spot when he didn't want to be home. He liked reading -- he couldn't read very well now, of course. Not because he was a bad reader. Just cause his eyes were literally never going to be as good as they were before he injured them. Step by step.
It's Clementine's voice that startles Izuku out of his shock, a little at a time. The feline's ears give a little twitch as he recognizes .. a voice. Not somebody he knows. But somebody nonetheless. He should -- he should pull himself together. Can't see him like this over a little thing like his own electricity, which had literally only hurt him one time. Terribly, yes, but still just once. But even just trying to suppress it just makes it worse, the tears coming faster for a few moments as he tries to force himself to calm down.
"Y -- yeah," He manages a little wheezily, looking over his one paw to see -- well, a kitten. The guilt weighs in on him then -- this was his problem, god why did other people have to worry about it. They probably didn't even know or get it and he doesn't deserve help what the hell. His breath hitches, and he resists the urge to just .. completely bury his face. He might've, but -- well, that'd hurt. And he doesn't want to have to wash off injury fluids off of his face. He didn't even want to be here oh god why couldn't he have this breakdown in the safety of his own home. He didn't -- want to be alone, but he didn't want to bother people like this either. The kitten has crawled closer and -- Izuku is fine with that. Mostly. She doesn't seem like she's going to touch his leg, and that's good, even if it was just -- low voltage. Even so, there's something paranoid that forces him to yank his paw farther away and back into his fur despite the flash of hot pain that hits him. He lets out a little pained sound because it burns and he probably just undid some healing but whatever. Whatever. "I c .. I c-can," He affirms, but it's clear that it's only barely as he lets out a little sob once again afterwards. His throat is tight and tired and god. His ears briefly flatten when she mentions leaving, but she -- wasn't. She was staying here. He's simultaneously very glad and also very distressed about this -- his problem, she shouldn't have to. Despite this, though, he tries to follow her instructions, and it's ... very hard. One moment he'd be semi-ok and the next his paw would crackle and it doesn't even hurt but then he'd be panicked all over again. He turns his head just the slightest, though, so it's not -- as prevalent. It helps a little -- as in he's not hyperventilating or anything but his head is light and everything feels kind of spinny. "I'll -- I'll be okay, pl -- please d .. dont," Don't need to bother anyone else. Please don't. Don't broadcast his irrational fears to the rest of the clan. Or Aizawa. God forbid Aizawa discover he's scared to death of his own electricity. He's not sure what the lion will do or if he'll do anything at all, but Izuku just ... he's not sure.
"B ... bandages, pl ... please, um," His voice is shaky and his face is definitely a big mess and he still doesn't get why cats here can cry, but he needs ... to get something over it. Can he manage to get bandages over it? With one paw? And also mid-breakdown? Probably not but the moment somebody gets shocked by his electricity, basically static as it was, he'll be in full-out hysteria. So. He'll just have to live with it.

☀ what was i worth