so if i threw it all away — p, izuku

[arcy]

Despite what anybody may believe, Izuku was not quick to trust. On a surface level, certainly -- he'd be happy to trust people with his life, if needed. But with him? His feelings? Trust them with his trust? No, absolutely not. And it was ridiculously easy for somebody to lose his trust, at least some of it. The good news was that Izuku was quick to forgive, whether it was deserved or not. His forgiveness wasn't limitless, of course, as he could tell with the absent bitterness he felt towards Bakugou, but that wasn't here nor now. Sure, Izuku was still incredibly bothered with Aizawa's earlier treatment of him -- did Aizawa know anything? He didn't mean that in a particularly cruel way, but Izuku clearly needed at least a breather till the effects of the electricity subsided enough he wouldn't need all four of his legs to balance. They'd have needed to check for other side-affects aside from the shaking, too -- Izuku recalls how strange everything had been, his heart, his breathing. And that kind -- he's not sure, peeved him. He tries to let it go -- Aizawa didn't have any real medical training, and Izuku sure got into some bullshit, anger was deserved. But ... he's not sure, with the way Aizawa had been avoiding him after it all ... Couldn't even take responsibility. (just like everyone else just like everyone else just like everyone else)
Still, it's professionalism that keeps Izuku calm when he hears Aizawa's voice. He could be passive aggressive if he wanted, bare his teeth and grin, just like he did everyone else. But that wouldn't be fair -- not only was that petty, but Aizawa was here for a check-up. As one of the only doctors consistently here at the moment, he couldn't do that. Besides, Aizawa had only ever been his teacher. Only that, not a friend, not anything else.
"Hi, Aizawa," Is all Izuku says as he turns, offering what was intended to be an easy grin. It's a little tight, though, and Izuku's tail sweeps to curl around his paws. Being called 'Midoriya' again is strange -- Aizawa is really the only one who did that, anymore. He supposes it must be stranger to everyone else, though. He's just gone completely local, first name and all. Right, but the check-up. Izuku blinks, a little jarred as Aizawa coughs, and it's only after so much experience with fretting over All Might that Izuku catches sight of the blood droplets. Concerning -- very concerning. That meant it was ... internal, right? Something was causing that blood? But what? His head is spinning, so Izuku just stands up, and after a little wobble as he steadies on three legs, drags him and his limp, burning leg closer. "Okay, there's that. What other symptoms are there?" Izuku asks with a tilt of the head. His chest feels tight with concern, as Izuku's head spins with what he could possibly give Aizawa to help ease whatever symptoms there were? Tea? Definitely tea, that was a fallback, especially since it was, y'know, internal. But what else? Blood, coughing? Seriously, Izuku didn't know a lot, but it should be enough to keep Aizawa from getting any worse, at least till Jacob could get an actual look at the lion.

☀ what was i worth