06-11-2024, 05:08 PM
the hardest thing to me is facing the fear i live
no one can help me now, it’s under my heart!
“You killed your mentor, yet continued his research… if only for a time. There’s an interesting story there. But, hey, I guess we're not friends yet.” Xanti’s manticore tail slowly wrapped around xyr paws.
Then the cheetah shrugged. An ear flicked. “But I do not think your interest in how others tick is unusual for our kind. Every surgeon I’ve met is a psychopath.”
“Surgeons either start their career as psychopaths or become psychopaths in the process. Anyone else succumbs to guilt over even the most trivial of mistakes.” The cheetah snorted in amusement. “Statistics. It is impossible to do anything without making mistakes. Yet the prosocials think they will be the exception and save every life on their table, never error, like a storybook hero… a bit narcissistic, aren’t they? Fools.”
Xanti hesitated, glanced to the side and up as xe remembered a conversation with Vale. “But you are unusually non-collaborative for a psychopath.”
Xanti blinked, then shrugged. “Personally, I don’t see much difference between surgery and slaughter. The same psychopathic traits are required for both. But a surgeon has intelligence, self-discipline, and collaboration. While a serial killer? He leaves victims without learning anything in the process. What a waste of time and effort.”
“So, tell me, what did you learn from experimenting on creatures and corpses?” Xanti’s head tilted.
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Then the cheetah shrugged. An ear flicked. “But I do not think your interest in how others tick is unusual for our kind. Every surgeon I’ve met is a psychopath.”
“Surgeons either start their career as psychopaths or become psychopaths in the process. Anyone else succumbs to guilt over even the most trivial of mistakes.” The cheetah snorted in amusement. “Statistics. It is impossible to do anything without making mistakes. Yet the prosocials think they will be the exception and save every life on their table, never error, like a storybook hero… a bit narcissistic, aren’t they? Fools.”
Xanti hesitated, glanced to the side and up as xe remembered a conversation with Vale. “But you are unusually non-collaborative for a psychopath.”
Xanti blinked, then shrugged. “Personally, I don’t see much difference between surgery and slaughter. The same psychopathic traits are required for both. But a surgeon has intelligence, self-discipline, and collaboration. While a serial killer? He leaves victims without learning anything in the process. What a waste of time and effort.”
“So, tell me, what did you learn from experimenting on creatures and corpses?” Xanti’s head tilted.
UNEXPECTED YET EXPECTED —
— i wanted to hate / i wanted to die / i wanted to see you sacrificed / i had to deal with the fear you gave me / but you fucker never tried to help me / i was jealous and i was scared / nobody ever replaced my pain / to say i’m not evil, to tell I’m not bad / too late, i’m lost in human nature / leave me be / set me free / leave me be / set me free / the hardest thing to me is facing the fear i live / no one can help me now, it’s under my heart / i’ll come to know the living, my demons are inside / i’ll bring them all to light / ———— emerged from the dark I come to life!