hear the bells ringing? ;; jor

[Cobra]

his words made her pause and she looked up to him with curious eyes. was she still confident in who she was? not in the slightest. she was more scared of the unknown now than she ever was before. she had no idea if she was loved. angel loved her, but others? she doubted that. she was not wanted like she had been back then. dead or alive, everyone knew her name and wanted her head or her love.

then he asked what made her so different. the question made her pause and she looked at her paws. her tail curling about her paws as she thought a moment. perhaps he was right? perhaps she was the same woman she once was? she could be the same woman and make others see who she truly was.

then he spoke again and she looked up. ears flicking back as she gazed into his eyes. she looked to the paper and wrote once more. he made me confident. that confidence made me the queen they all needed. she looked up and sighed that silent sigh. she missed her husband, or was it x now? her paw moved up to touch her necklace silently.

a golden ring hidden under her paw near the snake on her necklace. and then he spoke and she let her ears perk slightly. a pain he felt and so did she. her ears drooped and she looked at her paws as his words washed over her. when he fell silent, her eyes lifted up and she felt a dull ache in her heart.

i understand all to well. all we can do is keep on living our life. but, if you see them in your son, then you see them everyday when you visit him. it may not be the same, but it is a gift you should cling to. my kids were so different i could have never seen my daughter in my son.

she paused and then a bitter look entered her eyes. my daughter was a healer. sweet and loving. loyal and kind. she was strong enough to stand up for the right thing and would never back down. she paused in her writing to take a ragged breath.

my son was a monster from the start. i loved him, but he did not love me. he was cold and cruel. he killed without care. no mercy. he was my child and i would never trade him. but i wish i could have seen my daughter in him after she passed. so, jor, you should love every minute of your son. take time to play and just relax together. but never let go of the memories of your other kids. that pain never leaves, but one day you will walk the stars with them again and everything will be worth it.


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