Memories of Darkness, Light of Truth

[Usagi Smallpaw]

[Color=red]She had been sleeping peacefully that night.a dream less sleep with no intrusion,until a flash of red crossed her vision and she began to dream,life like dreams that seemed unreal or part of some distant past. There were those parts of the dreams that felt familiar.sucking at the belly and another of a few months later,getting beat to the ground by that should she called father. It must be a false father in this dream,one who had much power over her and seemed to hate her for not being like him. He sent those who answered to beat and ridicule her,the children of the clan following suit. A dream blurry and hard to piece together,  Two wolves talking no arguing. One lunges and tries to grab her but fails and is injured for it. "Why Augustin?" The hurt wolf says. "Because I Will make her to forever be a stain on your conscience.".
The big wolf and his friends attack the injured one and chase her off. The dream shifts again and a at his point she is twisting in her sleep,troubled muttering heard from her form. The scene she now dreams is of her,chained to a stone slab with fake father chanting over her and cutting her every so often. She is scared and it hurts but she dare not cry out because fake father will hurt her worse. A searing pain stabs through her and into her chest a low deep growling laughter. Everything shifts yet again to flashes of blood and gore,screams of pain,moans of the dying and calls for mercy, all going unanswered as all are slain. It shifts once more to fake father standing over her giving one of his many beatings. "Your mother was a coward who hated you and left you for rot, you are worthless and only useful for breeding stock,perhaps not even that." She cries our as he continues to beat her,sometimes switching to tools that leave shallow,painful cuts that leave no permanent marks. Once more the world shifts and she is a small pup, a voice trying to sooth her crying and still blind form. In the dream her eyes open for the first time and she stares up into the face of her dame. Everything flashes once more to pain and hurt and suffering and she finally is able to jerk awake,screaming in fear and pain,Lashing out with a blade of water, missing Bai shi and hitting a stalactite causing it and a few others to come crashing to the floor.Almost instantly after waking she begins trying to scramble to her feet and run from what she just saw,but her legs give out with blinding white pain and she collapses unconscious for a few moments before reawakening, panting and wild eyed with fear,fearing whatever next strike may come and unable to talk through the blinding pain.

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[color=#7E354D]BAI SHI
" my own illusion come to be "

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bai shi would automatically deflect the stone with their wind element, wincing as the stone crashed into the wall, slowly getting to their feet to follow after their younger sibling. "usagi. usagi, hey. calm down. shh. it's alright. you're not going to be hurt here, not anymore." they murmured in a soft rumble, sniffing her pelt to check for any traces of poison or damage to her.

[Jiyu Simul Stamus]

Jiyu was beyond familiar with nightmares, for several long years she had lived one every single moment of her life and now that she was 'out' those days came back every single damn time she closed her eyes for too long. She was cold, able to hide that truth from others because she was just so used to enduring, but most animals were not like her, Usagi included. Perched on one of the crystals in the middle of a nap she was prompted awake by the restless sleep of her apprentice, mismatched optics focused on the younger animal. How did one aid someone clearly locked within nightmares? Most times it was a matter of waking them but the calico detested doing that, she knew very well that comfort only lasted until the next time sleep became necessary. Thus the vizier solved such problems by invading peoples heads without letting them know what she was doing, quickly moving to do the same with Usagi, closing her empty eyes to stretch her mental abilities.

Front row seat the calico instantly moved to trying to pull a more positive memory to the frontline of Usagi's mind, finding one and deeming her job done. However, things were only alright for a second! When within someone's head like this she had to find a way out too and doing that often caused her to see additional things which were not necessary. The race was on, running around within the younger girls memories trying to find something that didn't ring deja vu, anything that didn't bring up images of herself as a kitten beaten, bleeding, broken and still scared or already vengeful against animals who had nothing to do with it. At some point her twists and turns came across a soothing voice and she grabbed onto that pushing it as hard as she could to the front. While she tried to keep pushing that single memory of Usagi's the calico was still fighting her own battling against remembering the one thing she wanted to remember least, something she wished someone could take from her forever.

A figure suddenly broke through everything, blue eyes so cold they froze whoever they looked at, blue-grey markings so dusty they resemebled the ashes from everything he burned down, slighty off white pelt scattered with drops of blood and sharp fangs opened ready to sieze just as his raised unseathed paw was. Jiyu was swiftly ejected from the others head, the second she saw that image her powers just shut down for a moment, thankful she had been 'asleep' and for Usagi's freak out upon waking up, no one got to see the terrified expression torn across her face.

Stoic once more she spread her wings and lifted her tail letting that allow her to glide when she leaped from the crystal she had been sleeping on. Landing silently she lifted her wings to slightly encase the pair, looking down at Usagi something visible behind her frozen expression for a brief moment. It was too close for comfort but she couldn't back down now, she had never backed down before.

[Usagi Smallpaw]

As the pain began to fade Usagi curls up and begins to cry,tears leaving long streaks of wet fur in their wake. This was way too much,reliving all those. She had forgotten but as she saw and watched she remembered. Those except the ones that seemed alien to her of conquest and slaughter.but what did it matter? This was his doing,she could feel the amusement and satisfaction he was letting off. He had meant for her to see this but why? Most likely to torture her.  Slowly she uncurls sligjtly though letting oit a pained groan. Her legs felt like they were on fire even when she shifted then a little.Surrounded by Jiyu's comforting wings she looks up toward bai shi, the edges of the teary tracks drying and the salt forming on her fur. "I-I saw her Bai...i-i s-saw my mother....sh-she looked alot l-like sire.....sh-she was singing to me....The tears begin to flow much more and her body begins to shake with her sobs as she talks"sh-she was alive a-and there n-not dead....i-in it F-false father w-was there too....h-he beat me a-and made me call him father a-and in it h-he chased off my mother....sh-she called him A-Augustin....sh-shE was alive Bai.....wh-why couldn't it b-be true..."She begins fully crying,body shaking and sobing,the extra movement causing her even more pain and she just becomes a ball of fur amd tears

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[color=#7E354D]BAI SHI
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bai quietly nuzzled her, wanting to give her comfort. "Augustin? I'll ask father." they murmured quietly, breathing out softly, eyes closed. "I know the feeling ... I wish my biological father was still alive. Father is more my mother than my father." a weak hollow laugh. "makes me wish that they were still together, and he was still alive. Mum did know a male named Augustin, said he had a history with him that was all but he did say that the man had a few litters of pups and that he couldn't rescue any when he could escape Augustin's goons." they murmured, stroking her fur back with their muzzle "Mum used to have different bodies before he reincarnated each time, so you may have been around him a lot? or maybe auntie?"

[Usagi Smallpaw]

She continues to shake and presses against her muzzle, tears continuing to stream down and she looks up at Bai Shi. Why did this bother her so much when she had siblings like her and friends like master Jiyu. she lay there looking up at them until realization sparked in her eyes and the tears poured quicker "S-sibling i-im s-so sorry c-can you please s-see if H-he can come?' She could feel herself close to breaking. she had completely quieted Takao for now and she didnt know how much more she could handle. all she wanted was to loose herself in her tears right now.