08-10-2018, 01:19 PM
[align=center][div style="width:500px; maxheight:; text-align: justify; font-size:9.5pt; line-height:1.3"]It wasn't an astounding epiphany or even a moderately novel one that nothing could last forever, but it had been far too easy to settle in and get comfortable, to arrange a routine and fall into a false sense of security. He had been a child when the circus took him in, so he had falsely believed that there was some permanence in their makeshift family, but any family had its issues. He hadn't understood that when he was younger, eager and bright-eyed as he'd been, though when he grew older, he came to recognize details he hadn't paid attention to as a boy. He'd been too quick to forgive then, but self-awareness was a helluva bitter pill to swallow, and when he had, certain mistreatments became incredibly apparent. B saw more than he did, like the almost surreptitious sips one of the dancers would take between acts, and how much effort one of the musicians took to disguise terrible bruises from brawling behind the tents with the six-legged tiger.
It became more apparent how hard his mentor pressed him, how she kept him on the ropes for hours on end, expecting nothing short of perfection. As a child he had been desperate to impress, and when he grew older, watching her frown at every flourish had hollowed him out to make room for the scalding rage. It came to a head when she nearly killed him by slackening the rope as he walked on it, and he couldn't allow more second chances. No more extending his hand only for her to slap it away, and he'd thought going to the ringmaster might have straightened out that problem, but he'd taken her side, called B their least-attractive act. He may as well have spat on everything he'd ever done.
So he left. B still wasn't certain if it was the best choice, kept thinking that maybe if he'd just negotiated they could have worked something out, but- no. His passion had been devoured by expectation, and out here, there was no one to kick him while he was down. Just the sand and the ocean, and he'd never really had a chance to look at it before, too much time spent under a striped tent.
The charcoal lion exhaled, sifting his paws through the grains, curling his toes. The sun, while not especially kind to darker colors, was a comfortable warmth at his back, and B didn't know what to do with all of this peace.
It became more apparent how hard his mentor pressed him, how she kept him on the ropes for hours on end, expecting nothing short of perfection. As a child he had been desperate to impress, and when he grew older, watching her frown at every flourish had hollowed him out to make room for the scalding rage. It came to a head when she nearly killed him by slackening the rope as he walked on it, and he couldn't allow more second chances. No more extending his hand only for her to slap it away, and he'd thought going to the ringmaster might have straightened out that problem, but he'd taken her side, called B their least-attractive act. He may as well have spat on everything he'd ever done.
So he left. B still wasn't certain if it was the best choice, kept thinking that maybe if he'd just negotiated they could have worked something out, but- no. His passion had been devoured by expectation, and out here, there was no one to kick him while he was down. Just the sand and the ocean, and he'd never really had a chance to look at it before, too much time spent under a striped tent.
The charcoal lion exhaled, sifting his paws through the grains, curling his toes. The sun, while not especially kind to darker colors, was a comfortable warmth at his back, and B didn't know what to do with all of this peace.
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YOU'D BREAK YOUR NECK TO KEEP YOUR CHIN UP
[div style="font-size:10pt;line-height:1.1;color:#000;font-family:georgia;margin-top:-9px"][align=center]MEMBER OF SUNHAVEN & BIOGRAPHY & GOOD IS NOT SOFT