FUTURE GENERATIONS ● kydobi

[bai shi]

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THE KINGPIN

golden lung dragon & black jaguar w/ vitiligo & platinum silver fox. unknown age - ancient. bai 'pure' shi 'honest' lynn lingré. prefers lynn if close. they/them. blind. wind element & electric element. firstborn son of jerisidie lingré & current head of family/general. courting kydobi, regina & idyllfields. marauder of the pitt. demiromantic gray-asexual.

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blind gaze boring far and deep into the misty hole in the ground, they were still, listening to him, listening like their life depended upon it. taking a deep breath, they swallowed, and exhaled heavily. turning their gaze to him, all of the fight and fire that lit their gaze was gone. "we both have problems. but you can't let them drag you down, kydobi. i know the weight that you have thrust upon your shoulders. but you are the better man to carry this burden. i've carried that weight to protect a kingdom and a gathering of people looking towards me for protection and guidance. do not forget that you are only a man, the same as any other. you have needs and desires." they murmur, stepping back from the precipice.

"leadership is a heavy, hateful burden. but you'll always have me, even if i am not where you wish for me to be." they begin, letting their paws guide them blindly through the old ruins of a territory, "i'm afraid that i've been blind for far too long, kydobi. blind in the ways that i should have seen. in the ways that mattered. i'm also afraid, that i'm so much a fool that i needed the words, because i've seen affections given in too many of a false way. it's alright to be undecided, frighened, unsure, or whatever the hells you want to call it. i did not think that this was your first relationship, Zhànshì."(Warrior)

exhaling heavily, they shook their head slightly, "if anything, this whole mess falls upon my shoulders. i cannot halt in my courtship of idyllfields, and i do not wish to. i would have gladly made you mine, had i been able to see through my own prejudices, and i can only offer my heart, or what's left of it after lifetimes. i cannot fix the past nor the pain that i have caused you, but i will offer myself and my body to you in penance, if you so wish to have me for a while. i can only hope that from the failure between us .. that we can still grow and be friends." they murmur quietly, claws digging into the ground beneath them.